When does it end?

Unpacked stocks, dressed stiff mannequins, curry puffs.
That gay interview with my girls, MOS burger and hmmmmm.
And lastly, a beer for me.
Bus eighty.

I feel utterly depressed today. Got myself thinking way too back. Damn it.

How should I carry on. Is it so hard to just look forward?

Same Mistakes..
So the world turning in my sheets and once again, I cannot sleep .
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars beneath my feet.
Remember rights that I did wrong, so here I go.

Hello, hello. There is no place I cannot go.
My mind is muddy but my heart is heavy, does it show?
I lose the track that loses me, so here I go.

And so I sent some men to fight, And one came back at dead of night.
said he'd seen my enemy. Said "he looked just like me",
So I set out to cut myself and here I go.

I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
Cos I'll just make the same mistake again.

And maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak.
Don't buy the promises 'cause, there are no promises I keep,
and my reflection troubles me, so here I go.

I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
Cos I'll just make the same mistake.

I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
Cos I'll just make the same mistake again.

Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street,
Look at the stars. Look at the stars, falling down,
And I wonder where, did I go wrong.


with you.

Tan Lay Suan's 19th.

This is so overdued! I know I owe it. :p

OMG, I just realised that there is still SOOOOO many things to do for cluedo, I'm SOOOOO in deep shit. SHITSHITSHIT. Whatever. I'm worn out and aching all over. And I have to get to school by 2PM later. Like what the bleah. Oh, I HAVEN'T PACK MY BAGS :( Terrible.

Yesterday was like totally wasted. Literally drank and drank and drank the entire night. Because it's
TAN LAY SUAN FELICIA'S 19th BIRTHDAY!

Weet ooohhh weeeeeet :p (I remembered taking this photo semi-drunk!)
I wish you much happiness in time to come, and I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW IT :) You have really grown up my baby, ya it's time to upgrade you from baby to toddler :D LOL. You lame piece of shit, I LOVE YOU! Let's make the pictures do the talking :D Horrendously burnt out. PHEW.

FOOD baby : D We are the gluttons. So... Her birthday was officially held at Pasir Ris Park. You don't wna know what actually happened before we found the pit. (HUFFS!) And.... It's really strange how people know you and you seriously don't know them at all! HAHA! :)

My chefs for the day :) YAY.

Jol LOVES apple and crannies!!!!! :DDDD BUT, it tasted weird when I was high on alcohol. :/

Feli baby's birthday CARD. Made with love by Mouuuufy.

COACH for baby! : D

This is her favourite fragrance :D

I think she drank a little way tooooo much for her. HAHAHA. Classic.

And hmmmmmmmmm..... ME TOO :x I swear I was freaking sober! LOL. Look damnnnn wasted lar. Oh I remembered this scene, I was asking everyone to come over and cut the cake! LOL. They were worried I'll topple it over!

YEAHHHHHHH. All so high.



MY BABY YOU :DDDDDD I LOVE THIS GIRL LIKE HOW HUMANSS BREATHE :D

There, happy birthday cake for baby! Sponsored by our dearest NUMEES :D Strawberry shortcake from Bakerzinn! YUM :)

Cutting the cake, and looooook the drunken girl! LOL.

One group shot, yo.

The next moment I knew, Boobies came hugging me! And I was high and dizzy, I lost balance and literally fall off the seat. I fell backwards with her lar!!!!! And I cushioned her fall, but poor me, I landed flat on my back. GOD. It's was so damn freaking hilarious!!! EMBARASSING at the same time?! HAHA.

The next thing I knew, the cream came. ARG... it seriously stinks on the face!!!! (BARFS!)

AND. HAHAHAHAHA! There you have a......... HAHAHAAHA.

HAHAHA... there there Boobies, Ballies is here for you. :))



Heee, all so adorable. I LOVE MY JUNKIES MUCH! :))

That's all folks. Time to hit the sack! ZZZZ. See me Wednesday night!

Not meant to be.

Damn tired larr. Today was SPENT YOUR MONEY DAY. And yes I kinda spent away a week's allowance today. (BANGS THE WALL) Okay. Yeah. Happy birthday my baby boobiesss :D Hope you had a great time today!! Ballies will love you no matter what, even if your foot stinks! HAHA. Okay hope she's not reading this. Anyway, today had been a crazy one. OMG, zonked. LOL. ATE, DRANK, DANCED. ZZZ. Lol. Sakae almost collasped under our monsterous laughters and biatching. We ate pretty much like gluttons. Burrrrp. I think I puked and choked on as much of spasmaticballs too. Lol. Pubbed at Artery and went ew, clubbing at Arena and MOS. Lol. Not my kind my place, butttt just had the mood today. So much laughters and fuuuuuuuun. And I received a lovely box of condoms today. LOL. Howwww lovely the day is. "It's so windy up here, wifey..." HAHA. Inside poldar joke. :D Okay, waiting for my pictures to start pouring in :d I'm really a minced-brain now. Poopish mess in the head. Plus this recent happening in my head is really not giving me a break!! It's a good and bad news. SIGHHH. Hoping for a miracle then. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEEEEEEE, let it happen?? :(

Anyway, Happy Valentines' Day! I have a date with my BOOKS :D Bye lovelies, have fun k :D
I owe everyone some pictures.

PISANGS on the 4th day of CNY(:




MUMMY(: And the chocolate cake.


My poooooor baby Bobbyyyy :d


And Boobies' 19th :D



More to receive from JACQ, my camera just suckssssss. K bye.

DIEDEDEDEDEDEDED.
My existence. What a mess you got yourself into, again.

Clique!

Thank you darling clique! I REALLY MISSED YOU GUYS. This is like my first time meeting you all for the holidays, and monday school's reopening?! SIGHH. Man.. Missed all my year one classmates ): Today we celebrated for Shile and my belated bday! : ) They surprised us with this really goooood Choco Tiramisuuu cake!!

(: Chocolateeeyy Tiramissuuuu! It's so cute 'cause it has the fork and spoon design! My 5th and last cake! Thanks to Liping, Michelle and my lesbian crush, su-h baby!!
But most of all.... Thank you, ROY! hahaha. (: I made a wish for you and liping too. 8 years later please reserve a table for us okay? ((: You get what I meant((: THANK YOU! HAHAHA! Oh, we were at BISHAN, Pizzahut. I was so not full?! I finished like a big slice of cake. HAHA. And I was still craving for something more. Omg, I just exposed what a glutton I am.. LOL. Went window shopping w lesbian crush, she ended up buying her clothes. HAHA! Was suppose to shop for a top for the upcoming band concert la. Just can't find the right one. I'm determined to get one, really. This thursday! If not I am not called TAN YIN JOO JOLENE. HAHA. Okay. yinjooooo. Oh man, missed my clique so much, but sch's starting. It's really hard to meet up when school starts. BAHHH! Hope to meet up again! PLEASE DO! Lol. Here are some really random shoots in Phut:
They asked us to make a wish.
Then pose with the cake before cutting it.
And kiss each other.HAHA! None other than my silly clique((: LOVE Y'ALL!

Hahaha. 3 more days till I end work at Mediacorp. Man... I'm going to miss the people there. HAHA. Today's highlight at work. Being in the English dept. I think they expect us to like speak and type properly la. So uncle gabriel was like checking my work and melly was watching too. I thought everything was like PERFECT. I checked all my podcast uploads and all... Then huh.... they spot one damn mistake that made me so damn embarassed.
Si uncle: "HA! HA! HORRRRR!! YOUR EPISODE!!! You spell WRONG!!! SPELL APISODE! HA!!!"
Me: "......................."
Melly: "WO DA NI DE PI GU AH!!! Episode also can spell wrongly!!"
ME: -______________-" "........................................... AH!!!!!"

HAHAHA! Irritating. It's JUST ONE LETTER! hahaha. Funny people la. Hah.. Stay tune to another Apisode of, Jolene's tales. HAHA. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THURSDAY SUNDAY! It's.... POLDAR DAYYY!!! YAY! Lastly, Happy 18th birthday, boy. ((:

Remedies.

First and for most, I'm in serious need of this,


A GIANT BAR OF DARK CHOCOLATE?! Sigh, not in the best of mood lately.. My mind's really so cluttered. No matter how much I just wna throw it away, it will just keep coming back. So... I'm in really need of comfort food. But thanks Olivia lovely for the bar, the endorphins are kinda perking me up. For a tad period that is. It just dies off after I finished the bar.

Hmmmmmmm, changed your mind about whipped cream?


Haha, kayyyys. Was just being gross with Olivia (Ngoi ngoi twooo). HAHA. I'm foaming whipped cream from the mouth, yooo. A really unglamorous picture of Moi. Sorry if I've got you puking yesterday's meals. I'm just plainly bored and out of my mind. And it was meant to disturb my ngoi ngoi two. HAHA. Anywayyy, I really like the blackberry & greentea frap from Starbuckkks! IT'S REALLY NICE! Olivia has been bragging about it and was like convincing me that I should really really reallyyy try it. It's really refreshing and the blackberry tasted like jam. Just an extra tinge of fruity flavouring, yo. MMMMM. I'm so craving for it now. Boooo. Kinda reminded me random, I've just had caffeine! GOD. How am I going to sleep later. Damn it, another restless night.

Oversized tee + fbts + a doubledecker bed + a restless girl =


Life sucks. Just had to spice up my life by doing really random stupid stuff. I miss you, I REALLY DO. GOD. Shut up head, I've alr lost my mind. Don't make me lose my soul. Can't wait for the evening later(: I'm gna meet my darling clique. Wednesday. BIG SIGH. 17th. UHHHH): I'm blasting music to my alr deaf ear now, don't disturb me. Ciao.

So I'll waste these nights for a while
But I'll be holding on to you forever
And this is where my heart is cold and torn
I'm taken by your hope-filled lines
They're well-designed and dragging me along
I'll be waiting for this chance and I'll be gone

OH DEAR.

Lol, I seriously have got no idea what had happened to my blog. It just happened. LOL. I was just too bored and have got nothing to do I guess... sides... Exam's on the 28th n 29th. 2 papers and that's it. Hopefully to say "BYE! FREAKING SEM2.1!". HEY I FORGOT TO SAY, TODAY'S THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!! YAY. Study week's coming right up. Sighh. Well, it has been a fun but over stressful sem I should sayyy. It was too OVERLY EXPERIENTIAL. I'm brain-juiced pumped and over exposed to tooo much knowledge. HAHA. Whatever, I seem to be talking nonsense now. Nevertheless, I'm thankful for knowing much more friends. Especially TWIN((: Hmmmm. Just look at the time. TSK. OMG... I've really got no idea what I've done to my blog. Think its atrocious. (PUKES!) I still can't eat the fact over what had happened.. Siiiigghh... I'm so tired already. Tmr's a day with the fav. band people for fireworks. AGAIN! YAY. Long weekends coming up. One day for mugging. One day for pubbing! WEEEE. Okay. GOODNIGHT. 3.44AM... "Stay up till 4 in the morning.." HUMMMS. Bye world.

Wounds that never really heal.

when you walked away, i counted the steps that you take..

I feel so wrong. I DON'T FEEL GOOD AT ALL. But.... Felt great after making yourself insane, spinning on things that makes you spin round and round, attempting to make you puke your dinner in the middle of the night. Ya, like Gareth wanted to puke his McSpicy out! BAHAHA. Baldwin and Gareth are the craziest and stupidest duo I've ever met in my entire life I swear! BAHHHH. They made me laugh till my tummy hurts. I found myself crying like an idiot toooo. It's just fun watching them spin round and round, can't walk straight and falling to the ground. I was seriously laughing my ass off with Olivia and Seehua. I decided to join them for a spin and I fell to the ground after 20 spins on that spin spin thingy. LOL. YAY. I FOND A NEW HOBBY. SPINNING. Sigh.. Olivia and Seehua are the best people to go to to get consoled. 'Caused they tend to be in the same frequency as me. Like STRANGELY we would be.

Tell you something, School's a whole load of BULLSHIT. I effing hate this semester. Think I'm not going to make it through anyway. My tutors like to drown me in their sarcasm. One say I cannot make it to 2.2, another shows me the 'cut my head off and die' action while taking my mr test today. Vomits. LOL. I seriously feel like poking their eyeballs. BOO. MEN. They meant no good. They just harm and hurt you. Make you break into pieces and supposingly asked to clear the mess up by yourself. DIE. ):

Hmmmm, IMH or Vivo &Wheelock Place tmr? Steamboat on wednesday? NDP on thurs?
Seriously, I feel like procastinating. ):

EVERYTHING'S A WHOLE LOAD OF BULLSHIT. The world sucks.
GOODBYE CRUEL WORLD.

BAHAHAHAHAS.

HAHAHA. Thanks Felicias, for wasting the day with me. HAHA, actually not really, I enjoy being with them. It drove me INSANE. LOL. 2 papers down! Have got 3 more papers, which I seriously don't know how to study for. I'm damn clueless about the other 3. Marketing Research is forgone, for sure. I skipped all lectures and I'm expected to study all 8 chapters by myself. HO~ Veryyyyy good. Lol, but they told me lectures were a waste of time? 'Cause the lecturer didn't go through much? Hmmmmm. Oh well..

After today's finance paper, which I thought it wasn't as bad as the exercises I did last night. 2.30AM in the morning, I was still struggling with a question. I gave up 'cause I was so drained. The exercises freaked me out quite a bit. Thought the paper today was going to be that tough, turned out that it was do-able. Went to drink bubble tea at TM with the poly clique. Heeeee, long time since I talked and see them :] On my way home, I saw 2 Felicias!! Hahaha, and they asked me to go study w them. And I went of course, knowing that I wouldn't mug for Retail Prac at home. Well... We did study for at least an hour plus, the rest of the time was spent.... You guessed it ;) ...

"ZZZZZZz...."
"Felfel. Sexy seductive smile here. Woooo."
"She enjoys being an emo kid too!"
"Hahahahaha, wind in her hair! Felii! :]"
"Dark side vs Bright side."
"I'm the most fortunate kid, 'cause I have 2 retarded Felicias beside me."
"Mmmmmmmmm. Smile for whatttt. Acting Emo with them...... FAILED." "OOOOOI, STARE WHAT?!"
"What in the world is this?!"
"Okay.. Now it's wind in our hair. HAHA."
"Caught on the bed with Felfel!"
"I borrowed this in Tamp Library. Loveeeee pigs. And I've got this fetish for big picture books. :) This pig's name is Bubbles!"
"Childhood deprived, prehaps."
"Our pretty picture! :) Like this!"

Please do not roll off your chairs upon watching this 2 silly little-indian-boys-dreaming. Well I did, can't stop now. HAHAHAHAHAHA. I FAILED AND WAS RELUCTANT TO DANCE W THEM, but thought they were so adorable, I decided to film them. Oh ya, meant no races harms. Plainly our childhood song. :)

Felfel: GO! 1 little, 2 little, 3 little indians! GO! (......) Eh fuck, luh! Ren zhen yi dian, ke yi ma?!
Felii: Se mo?!
(Felfel burst into laughters!)
Felii: Wo ying kai jiang se mo??!
Felfel: You are suppose to '4 little, 5 little, 6 little indians'! (walks towards me) And you are suppose to '7 little, 8 little, 9 little indians!' la.
Felii: Then we all '10 little india boys!!'(funny coconut action) Okok.
Felfel: 1, 2, 3 GO! 1 little, 2 little, 3 little indians!
Felii: 4 little, 5 little, 6 little indians! GO!
Me: (.......................)
Them: OEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEIIII!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHA, classic. Hahahaha. I can't stop laughing! After that we went to play with Felfel's pink ball at the park nearby our home. Well, not really.. was watching the kids playing catching and we went to Cp's MOS for dinner. We went around to walk after dinner. Then there was this toys sales at the atrium. Then also had those 'tong' 1dollar coin machines? Ya, we saw this very adorable key holder keychain. HAHAH. And we decided to try our luck to get the character we want. I went first. And I got Pooh! Not so bad. Felfel wanted some cat character luh. Wah.... her reaction was damn funny when she got it can!? She's damn lucky luh. SHE SCREAMED AT MY FACE AND TO THE ENTIRE MALL. My face don't know throw where alr. LOL~!! Damn retarded!! So last it was Felii's turn... She wanted Stitch. So she turn... COME OUT REALLY STITCH, instead of her screaming, FELFEL SCREAM AT MY FACE AGAIN! HAHAHAH! Everyone was practically staring at us -___-" I was so damn embarrassed. HAHAHAH~ OMG. HAHA. I can't stop thinking about it. After all that insanity and embarrassing moments, we still continued to embarrass ourselves. We went to the arcade at 3rd floor, where there isn't much people. Guess what? WE PLAY DDR(dance dance revolution)! HAHAHAS! Like what the hell?! For don't know how many years since I went up that machine. HAhahaha, for the fun of it, I just danced w them. I really lost my image today, thanks to you girls. HAHA, I dance like some moron. Duh~ HAHAHA. Anyhooo, it was fun hanging around w them, luh. : ) That's all for todayyyy. Guess I'll head back to do my stuff now. That is to jog and mug. Boooo. Ciaooooo.